Music

I realized a few months back that I no longer listen to music like I once did. It seems grief had a profound effect on that part of my soul. All my life music has been important to me and it's time to start making it important again. I think it's time to go perusing at a music store! Who knows what I will come away with!

What is this, some sort of yearly thing? Good grief!

I've been away for sometime.
I'm no longer enjoying my bus rides since I changed jobs and fixed the Jeep.
It's nice to have the car back but after a year of riding the bus I have a bad habit of driving too slow and annoying fellow travelers. You learn to slow down when you have to which more people should try once in a while. I just need to speed up or get back on the bus.
Another Thanksgiving has come and gone with Christmas (in my case Chanukah) riding hard on all our heels!
Just around the corner is New Years and YEEHAW another year!
They finally approved my loan modification and I have another shot at keeping my feet planted firmly on the ground.
I've done a lot of thinking and pondering the last 48 hours and this year is going to be different, I'm going to work on being different. I may have missed the boat the first time but this time I plan on climbing the gangplank and making this life sail!
Now get the hell out of my way I'm boarding the boat!

No regrets!

Long time, no post

Nothing much to say today. Brakes out on car, taking city bus every where and watching the world go by. I rather find it a nice change to get off my duff and walk instead of being transported by four wheels every time I walk out my door.

I've also made the choice to not get the converter box for my television. No more CSI shows and the only channel I get is the local "Christian" station and it doesn't come in all that great either...not that I really want to watch it anyway. So I spend my extra time reading books and trying to get things done around the house. I like it!

No regrets

Happy Anniversary Pete! It would be five years Wednesday, May 21, 2008

"The Dance"

Looking back on the memory of

The dance we shared 'neath the stars above

For a moment all the world was right

How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything

For a moment wasn't I a king

But if I'd only known how the king would fall

Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance

I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance

Written by: Tony Arata

Sung by: Garth Brooks

No Regrets!

Dreams

My cousin Barb passed away 27 years ago February 03, 1981. She had just turned 24 less than a month earlier.

Last night she was in a one of the oddest dreams I've had in a while. It seems she was helping me move but the place looked like underground cement halls.
I know we had some conversations in the dream but I can't remember what about. That is alright, I enjoyed the time I spent with her even if it was just a dream.

When we reached our teens we shared a lot of our thoughts and found we had both been jealous of the other growing up. I thought she was doted on and she thought my family was loving and stable. Boy, were we both surprised when we found what the other thought of those ideas.
More on that later though...

I miss her!

No regrets!

On this day...December 15,1989

A Police Officer came to my door and told me my dad had passed away. He had died on December 10 but no one knew for five days. Odd how things like that happen. I remember talking to him not that long before he died. He told me Thanksgiving Dinner had been really nice, I told him that Christmas dinner would be just as nice, too.
The day he passed away there was a major power outage from Homer to Fairbanks. I was in the car with my daughter and we were on our way to mail some packages. The traffic was such a mess though we just went home and I mailed them the next day.
I always said it was his last hurrah to cause a power outage.

No Regrets!

'Tis the Season

Talking to my daughter earlier this evening and the subject of Pete's love of Christmas came up. Always a kid at heart the whole twinkling lights, music and cheer is what made up Pete's personality.
A thought entered my mind that he would be a great "Spirit of Christmas Present" like the one in Charles Dickens "A Christmas Carol".
Yes, that is how I picture him...although it's more hot than not. The guy just made me crazy and I won't apologize for that.